Happy Happy Day

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Yes, it’s been forever and no, you don’t need to worry. My focus continues to be on being healthy and finding balance as a cancer patient. Metastatic melanoma is just one of my many interests in life. If you feel a lag, know that I am just not writing, nothing less, nothing more! Or be in touch!

Spring is Here!

The first day of Spring! Hooray and the sun speaks of things to come; it may only be a whisper but those of us who disparage winter’s worth can feel the change-a comin’. Subtle and yet, as bold and brash as a billboard, Spring shows itself. I’ve noticed a few green shoots popping through, daffodils undoubtedly. I’ve scoured the scrub brush out back for the snowdrops, but think I’m over zealous. Not everyone jumps for the joy of a plant you forgot about or that you thought you lost!!!

Seeds are here, too! I planted a few things and look forward to doing more. Dahlia seeds are already popping up…of course, this is all indoor adventure to keep me smiling through the rain and snow that inevitably comes this time of year!

Happy Days

Today is also International Day of Happiness according to the United Nations. Nothing better than a day to declare happiness. Well, yeah, except why not try our best every day? Great to recognize that feeling of happiness with a special day; after all you and I have our own special day each year. How about making the effort to make every day one of happiness?

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If you are challenged by disease, relationship, finance..whatever it may be, do you feel better for all your sadness, self pity, and sorrow? The best serum is courage; courage to drop your sorrows and make room for love and hope. Easier said than done when you are wallowing in your misery, but happiness is really not hard to come by.

Open up to let it in, grab for the positive, and see how happiness curls into every corner of your life. I firmly believe that each of us has only so much room for sorrow and pain before it takes us down and conversely, I believe that positive feelings of love, doing for others, and having fun can grow and multiply infinitely. And is contagious…catch some!

Misery Loves Company

Of course, I want to bring reading in to this post. As a librarian, I’ve always loved children’s books. I read everything but with all the amazing children’s authors out there, I return to what is dearest to my heart. Happiness is around every corner, every page if you choose to find it.

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The 2017 Newbery winner was The Girl Who Drank the Moon by Kelly Barnhill. What an amazing novel with many accolades, and add my thoughts to the collection of positive reviews.  Recommended for children in grades 4-6, I would expand that target to any reader in 4th grade or older. This could be a particularly pertinent read for a 13th birthday or a coming of age event. Adults, read it!

Not a big fantasy reader, I couldn’t wait to pore over each chapter, most of which are reasonably short in length. With magic, a tiny dragon, missing babies, and a town drowning in sorrow, who wouldn’t want to keep reading to see which witch is witch? The real magic comes in Barnhill’s words; she will have your children clamoring for more with the richness of plot, descriptiveness of place, and the authenticity of characters.

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And no, I don’t want to give a spoiler but the sorrow that consumes the community in this book…well let’s just say some thrive on  that sorrow and self-pity, while others work hard to bring happiness in to their lives. Oh yes, this is a children’s book but if you read deeper, I know Barnhill shares a message we all can find if we so choose. #melanomatheskin #cancer #happyday #happyspring #wecancervive #melanoma #Wednesdaythoughts #review #choosehappiness

Happy Day! Happy Life!

We can-cer vive!

Janis

 

 

 

 

14 GroundHog Day Facts And Why You Need to Celebrate This Underground Movement

See the Light

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Quoting an author I love, Paulo Coelho.

Those who know me, know my favorite day of the year is Ground Hog Day. Life is short so sometimes it’s a wonderful thing to be silly! For many years, I have advocated for this holiday which is severely underrated and under promoted. You might even say it’s an underground movement!

Ironically,  the days I am most interested in celebrating are sun related, kind of a strange one for the melanoma cancer patient, right? Winter solstice, Fourth of July, and yes, Ground Hog Day being tops on my list! So why do I love GH day? It’s a low maintenance holiday: no major gift giving, no seasonal decorations needed, and no pressure to get it all done! It’s our time to wish each other a Happy Ground Hog Day, to consider and talk about Spring (YAHOO, it is possibly happening again!!!!), and to see the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel (literally).

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I’ve taken to some subversive tactics over the years. My love of literacy has afforded me that annual opportunity to propagandize Ground Hog Day at my libraries, surely tainting those young minds and developing an unsuspecting following. Why, sometimes even elders understand this devotion; I  hear from a grandmother every year as we exchange Ground-Hoggedly Greetings!

Storytimes have included books such as Footprints and Shadows Shadow,   and  a reading of Stevenson’s poem My Shadow. One of my favorites is Moonbear’s Shadow and the list goes on and on. Take into consideration that the shadows we see are created by seeing the light! Projects might include: going out to measure your shadow and discussing the varying lengths at varying times, learning some basic shadow theater hand puppets, or weather activities such as painting the weather for that day or studies in black, gray, and white!

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In Fact

  1. Ground Hog Day is always celebrated on February 2nd
  2. It’s half way between the official start of Winter and the official start of Spring
  3. Groundhogs are also variously referred to as woodchucks, whistle-pigs, or land-beavers.
  4. The name whistle-pig comes from the fact that, when alarmed, a groundhog will emit a high-pitched whistle as a warning to the rest of his or her colony
  5. The name woodchuck has nothing to do with wood. Or chucking. It is derived from the Algonquian name for the critters, wuchak
  6. One of the largest rodents, part of the squirrel family
  7. Lives underground with pathways and burrows, having a separate winter den
  8. Hibernates generally from October to March, depending on location
  9. Hibernation can mean their body temperature drops to about 41 degrees (normal 98.6 degrees like us)
  10. Breeding season is March-May with a 30-32 day gestation period
  11. Litter of 2- 6 young (called pups or kits) though can have more
  12. Kits stay with their Mama about two to three months after being born in mid-April to May
  13. Youngsters disperse and leave mom’s burrow by Fall. However, about  thirty five percent of females stick around until after their first birthdays, right before mom’s new litter arrives
  14. Groundhogs are super for study of hepatitis B-induced liver cancer. In fact, if infected with Woodchuck Hepatitis B virus, the animal always goes on to develop liver cancer, making them useful for the study of liver cancer and of hepatitis B.

Punxsutawney Phil Lives

So here’s my truth, rodentially speaking, I really don’t like rodents at all. NOT AT ALL! And what’s more, whatever Phil proclaims weather-wise, it NEVER has relevance in the Northeast. We are shoveling winter off our doorstep or burrowing for the next 6 weeks and more guaranteed PERIOD! We will be demonstrating squirrelly behaviors and gnawing for warmer days!

Some think I’m absolutely foolish, others have embraced my desire for some mid-winter FUN! I’ve had staff make me ground hog shaped brownies, been given donuts with a ground hog poking out the hole, and a super-tacky Ground Hog necklace. I’ve gifted others “a just because” package to brighten their mid-winter blues (though Ground Hog Day is far more than “just because” in my mind!), and found awesome Valentine’s cards with those furry not-so-little rodents on them (multi-tasking the holidays of February!).

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Remember this is a no stress holiday! Wish those around you a Happy Ground Hog Day. Rejoice in the knowing that Spring will happen (it will, right?). Grab your seed catalogs or a good book, put on the tea water, and celebrate the day, celebrate you! Did you notice how late the sun set last night as the thermometer dipped to the negatives with hurricane force winds? It’s really very positive, this Ground Hog Day inspiration, the light I mean, not the shadow! #melanomatheskin  #GroundHogDay #FridayThoughts #WorldReadAloudDay #bookreview #melanoma #skincancer #followthelight #smile

Please sign up for my blog, let me know how you will celebrate in the comments,  and thanks for spreading the Good word! Happy Ground Hog Day to you and yours!

We can-cervive!

Janis

“Becoming”, by Michelle Obama…And Our Becoming

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Let It Be

Whoa! Amazing how time gets away from us. I’ve known I wanted to post in my blog, that I needed time to just let it be, and that other priorities had precedence. Not making excuses as it’s just the way it is! I find that I am always doing something so what the heck? Time can be such a game player!

Time seems to run from us, doesn’t it? And here I am, working on my melanoma and keeping stress to a minimum, part of a personal plan to keep life in balance while on a clinical trial drug called Yervoy. Creating space to improve my medical status has left me more challenged with time than when I raised my children, worked, and continued my education…all at the same time!

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Becoming

Becoming takes on different meanings for all of us but truly brings us all to a place for vision, action, reflection, and hopefully life growth through the process. It reminds me a bit of literacy grants and projects where ideas are born, nurtured and loved, to one day take flight while we evaluate the success (and failures) of such work. I’ve applied this a bit to life as it is now….becoming.

So, have you read Becoming by Michelle Obama? I am a stickler with reviews because, well, some books just don’t do it for me! However, Becoming is a book I love. In a time when life seems hard (not written to be a bummer at all, but really there are some awful things happening around the globe), this book gave me hope and was a very enjoyable read!

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Divided into three parts, the reader learns first about Michelle growing up, then as a forward thinking career woman who is a wife and mother, and lastly, as the First Lady who puts all she’s got into doing everything to the best of her ability.  She is so real and so honest in her depiction that at times I cringed to think about obstacles she had to overcome and the hard work she has put in to her life.

Neither stuck in the politics or the travesties in life, this book speaks about all of us, about our dreams, about our hard work. Hope does spring eternal and this is the perfect time to be reminded of this.

Love, education, and determination are three of the dominant themes that I found throughout Becoming. Fascination with this book really set in when I realized that these are the same things are central to my life, to most of our lives. I’ve read several books lately (when I should have been blogging!), but this book has stayed with me because of the hope that gets us through and beyond challenges of life.

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Cancer is there. Even if cured, we cancer patients will always wonder, ever so slightly about that one rogue cell. For many of us, we wonder if treatment is harder than the disease!  Reading positive books might just be another variation of meditation that leads to inspiration. What books have inspired you lately? Let me know in the comments! I’m always looking for more great reads!

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Life is about becoming, the process does not end. Above is a worn piece of paper, a quote that long ago helped me through a tough time. It’s place was on the fridge and ironically, I stumbled upon it the other day buried in a bureau drawer, a beautiful reminder of earlier lessons learned. I’m not religious but it never hurts to recognize how far we’ve come. Becoming: it’s for me, it’s for you, it’s for all of us. We’re doing just fine! #becoming #bookreview #melanomatheskin #cancer #melanoma #naturalskinrocks #skincancer #wecancervive

We can-cervive!

Janis

 

Tolkinesque Cancer Trek within The Great American Read

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Passion Between the Pages

Are you loving the PBS Great American Read? I am. All right, so I forgot to watch last Tuesday at  8 pm but other than that I’m loving it! Gazillions of book talks, promotions, displays, and story times later in my professional life, this librarian is truly loving this event.

Why you ask? I mean, there’s not a lot of bling, blang, or blood, so what’s so enchanting? How often do we have people read us excerpts, promote the words and authors they love, and remind us to read those books on “the someday list”? Interviewees are enthralled with the books they’ve read or voted for on the PBS list of 100; in hearing their thoughts, I’m excited about what to read next.

Inspiration comes from that which we know soothes our soul, and in reading books, that inspiration also comes from a story unfolding, though we don’t know where the reading will lead us. It’s a gamble as to whether the story will take us places we want to go. I’d love to hear your favorite book of all time and where it takes you!

Really? Another Reading List?

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The first book on the PBS list that I’m reading is A Prayer for Owen Meany which I’ve picked up from the library. Author John Irving completely captivated me with Cider House Rules so this is the next of his I’ve wanted to read. It’s proving to be a challenge as the clinical trial I’m on for metastatic melanoma leaves me too tired to read! With over 500 pages, I am laughing at myself with the 5 pages or so I read a night!!!!

BUT (that’s a big but!), the writing is rich, the characters I am getting to know intimately, and I’m finding the writing takes me to another time, another place. What better way to escape the world of cancer treatment, than to let the words take me away. Besides,  little Owen Meany has captivated my heart and I am sorry to think of his battles ahead.

Journeys Versus Battles

The Lord of the Rings trilogy is on the PBS Great American Read list. I read the first, enough to recommend it to patrons, and with so many books out there, this is my standard philosophy on book series: read one and move on! I loved the journeys Tolkien took us on but found the battles to be arduous, violent, and senseless at times.

I recently had communication with an acquaintance who mentioned the idea of journeys versus battles as we discussed the challenges of cancer. He wrote “I remember being part of a group working on a program for people living with cancer and the doctor who led this said he preferred to refer to this as a ‘journey’ rather than a ‘fight.'” Thought provoking.

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This captured me; the concept almost alien but I wanted to love the idea of a cancer journey, or life as a journey with cancer being one of those bumps on the road. Somehow I was feeling Tolkienesque, maybe the accidental adventurer like Bilbo Baggins, on this cancer journey, working through incredible, mythical landscapes with help from some amazingly, magical medical staff. I love to travel so this sounded great!

Uphill Battles

 

BUT (this is a bigger but still!) I don’t agree! The idea of cancer as a journey is upbeat and positive; that works for me! The reality is we cancer patients do battle each and every day. We fight back the demons in our minds. We warriors do surgeries, radiation, clinical trials, and defeat the evil darklord, cancer. This is OUR fight against evil!

Like Tolkien’s epic series, we cancer patients are never sure what is around the next corner. We learn to enjoy the time between peril, we battle our Smaug dragons, and fight for our treasure (not a mere golden ring), but time. Some of us lose our battles to time, some of us continue the fight.

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Yes, the analogy of a journey is a reasonable one, just fraught with battles to be won! We do our best to not get stranded in the battles, and must prepare with courage for each assault. Our journey may be a bit more dangerous than some but we all have our demons to fight, dragons to slay. Working through this idea, I’m going with life is a journey, and cancer patients the warriors against disease!

Watch the amazing Great Amercian Read on PBS. MY very favorite book on the #GreatReadPBS list? It’s not the ones I’ve mentioned in this blog. Tell me yours in the comments and I’ll tell you mine!

#melanomatheskin #cancer #GreatReadPBS #melanoma #TuesdayThoughts #somanybookssolittletime

We can-cer vive!

Janis

“Garden as Though…

You Will Live Forever”-William Kent

Wow! Where did that week go? My intent to write twice each week has been lost this week. Reminds me of  the lyrics to My Poor Meatball “that rolled right out the door”! I meant to write, I intended to write, and it all slipped out of my hands and right out the door!

Gardening is one of my passions. This year, with the clinical trial for recurring melanoma, I chose to focus on healing, well-being, gardening, and finding balance within the cancer life. The middle of last week found me starting to disassemble my garden beds…bittersweet, for sure.

“If you have a garden…

and a library, you have everything you need”- Marcus Tullius Cicero

Veggies are growing, the Three Sister Garden has had some success and some failure (I’ll talk about this in another post), and my glorious sunflowers are now bending and bowing with the weight of shorter days. Fatigue gets the best of me so my dreams of preserving, drying flowers, saving seeds, and more are not realistic. Healing comes in the form of watching and nurturing the garden, the self.

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Wonder and wonderful beyond words for me this past weekend was the visit from three very dear librarian friends. Adrenaline got me through the basic preparation for this easy gang. Because of the incredible dynamic among this former work team, each of us jumped in and as always, things went as smooth as butter (with lobster, of course)!

Dancing to the Salsa

Tomato season is here, right? I have a lot of sweet cherry tomatoes. Company brought some of the most amazing, BIG tomatoes, peppers, corn, etc. Conversation rambled about fresh salsa ingredients, issues in the world, food choices, mutual friends, healthy diet ideas, and books, so much so that I need to make a list with the titles reviewed. I’ll be sure to share it!

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Amazing Vermont produce, two seaside dinners, and chocolate humus were just the side dishes for me. Nourishment of the soul came around those meals. Laughter, love, and life made our time replete. Sated by friendship, deep and strong, I will remember to carry this soul-fullness on more challenging melanoma treatment days. #melanomatheskinwerein #cancer #laughteristhebestmedicine  #melanoma #naturalskinrocks  #thankyouforbeingyou

We can-cer vive!

Janis

 

 

Genre, Cancer, and Book Bullying

Building the reading list!

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What do you read? With company visiting, this is a common conversation in our home and one that always fascinates me. Titles, electronic or hard copy, are shared. Favorite library tales are discussed and everyone returns home with new lists, fodder in consideration of future reads, not all will be read but all will be considered.

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Hammock Reading

We are readers, my husband and I, with rare common ground. He sometimes enjoys light reading, and Robert Parker is his favorite mindless read when looking for something comfortable and non-strenuous. He tackles other things but loves a-re-read of Parker, The Ancient Child, All the President’s Men, and others. He is voracious, I dive deep into well worded writing. One we both enjoyed and have talked about at length is A Gentleman in Moscow.

As a librarian with a huge focus on family literacy, I am passionate about picture books and will always bring home a stack from my local library. I also love children’s chapter books that I can share with my grand-girl. I find this to be an enjoyable escape from the drama of being a cancer patient and the uncertainty that melanoma brings to the mind. This is my complete area of comfort, my hammock in the library world.

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In working with young adults, I learned to love certain authors; currently I am reading Tomi Adeyemi’s Children of Blood and Bone; this title has shown itself in multiple reviews and Jimmy Fallon’s Tonight Show chose it for a summer read. Well, technically, it is the finalist of a handful suggested. With his promotion of reading and libraries, I knew it was a book to read now!

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Reading In And Out Of The Zone

I’m out of my element with this book as I’m not a fantasy fan. It’s an allegory of the black experience, gods of color, and the belief of magic. I love it and highly recommend it! This is definitely a series in the making with movies to follow. Check out this interview with Tomi Adeyemi and I’m also loving that she encourages young writers. Thank you, Jimmy Fallon for this suggestion. Sometimes, it’s great to read out of our comfort zone.

So why blog about this and how does it relate to cancer? Reading takes on all forms; an engineer friend who reads technical matter, a non-fiction lover like me, or a light summer read that everyone loves. It’s all GOOD! Reading Matters! Recently, when getting scans at Dana Farber Cancer Institute, I asked a technician what she was reading. She joked and said she reads scans. We all have our focus and I’m grateful for that expertise. With an area in question on the CT this time, medical and professional reading is critical.

Awareness of discoveries, studies and clinical trials, and pertinent health information leads me to books and the latest in the field of cancer. AACR medical journal articles editor picks relating current cancer studies involving prostrate, breast, lymphoma, and other cancers are weighty reads, at best. For me, it’s an attempt to understand that which is not understood.

Beyond the Fantasy

But then, aren’t we all waiting for the cure; the magic beyond the fantasy, the scientific moment when healing takes place, when pain is replaced with hope, when that one child is given the reward of life for all his or her courage and efforts to be well. Cancer research is not a facile path, nor is the documentation. Reading snippets works for me; I leave the serious understanding to medical professionals!

Reading Matters!

Skip judgement and don’t be a book bully. People read for many different reasons. Escape/fantasy seems to bring more balance to me right now though next up is a non-fiction book I’ve been wanting to read by Tara Westover, Educated, another New York Times bestseller. So tell me, what are you reading and where do you find your inspiration? I’d love to add it to my list! #melanonatheskin #cancer #melanoma #bookreviews #readingmatters  #Tuesdaythoughts #whatareyoureading #librarylover #naturalskinrocks #wecan-cervive

We can-cer vive!

Janis

 

Empty Nest Inspiration

DSC01619 (1)Transitions are common this time of year. Learning to adjust to your youngest going to kindergarten, your oldest packing for college, or feeling quite sure that it all can’t come soon enough or that’s it’s happening too quickly, the bottom line is late summer is a time of transition.

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Melanoma and clinical trial treatment has changed my life dramatically. Cancer patients know that life as we know it is gone forever; learning to live with the possibility of it’s return and enjoying every moment are what matters.

For me, it’s the literal nests this year; three robin nests, one after the other, neatly tucked in the rafters under the deck gave me ample opportunity to watch life (and death) up close and personal. Advocating for the adults by offering them some peace and a piece of the deck with each family’s similar, yet unique style.

Bird’s Eye View

It may sound silly or remedial, but watching these families afforded me an amazing opportunity, an opportunity to be in the moment. To be aware of all my senses as my almost-daily robin’s nest encounters allowed that, a meditation of sorts. A quick peak through the deck boards to count eggs, watch newborns, consider unhatched eggs, listen for the immature chirps that will someday be a strong pip, pip, pip that the adults vocalized when I grabbed a moment with the youngsters.

 

In addition to my photos, there’s an amazing baby robin video that was taken of nest #2 (along with  robin book suggestions). There were some soul-filling moments this summer, a meditation with nature that I felt privy to, up close and personal. Disappointment over unhatched eggs wasn’t quite sadness, but something near it. Just an egg, for me it reminded me of the fragile balance of life, the sorrow of loss.

Fly The Nest

I miss my robin time. Siting those that fly past, I am quite sure they are “mine” and like my grown children that have lives of their own, I miss them and wish them health and happiness. For now, the empty nests are reminders of the beauty I shared with these robins. Look at the flora starting to grow in their nests now…and so life goes!

Tomorrow is too far off for me as I have learned from nature to live in this very moment.  My empty nests sit on the deck stairs yet, I find hope and inspiration for next year when my robins will build again. Healing comes in the belief of a tomorrow.   Please do sign up for my blog and let me know where you find your courage and inspiration in the comments! #melanomatheskin #cancer #melanoma #myhusbandwantsthedeckback #wecan-cervive

We can-cer vive!

Janis